I believe I made progress more readily because of a pattern of life shaped by certain values. I find it easier to live with myself if I try to be honest. I find strength in the friendship and interdependence of people. I would be blind indeed without my sighted friends. And very humbly I say that I have found purpose and comfort in a mortal' s ambition toward Godliness. Perhaps a man without sight is blinded less by the importance of material things than other men are. All I know is that a belief in the existence of a higher nobility for men to strive for has been an inspiration that has helped me more than anything else to hold my life together.
我的双眼是在4岁时失明的。在大西洋城的一个货场,当时我从棚车上摔了下来,头部受到了重创。如今32岁的我依然能模糊地想起阳光的灿烂和红色的鲜亮。重见光明固然美好,但不幸也会给人带来奇妙的感觉。那天,我突然意识到,如果我没有失明,也许就不会像现在这样热爱生活。现在,我相信生活。如果我不是盲人,我不敢肯定自己是否还会这样深信不疑。我并不是说宁愿失去双眼,而只是想说,失去它们让我更加珍惜自己的其他能力。
我相信,生活要求人们不断自我调整以适应现实。一个人若能更及时地自我调整,那他的生活也就更加有意义。然而,自我调整并不容易。曾经我时常感到疑惑、恐惧,但我很幸运。父母与老师在我的身上看到了我无法看到的东西——即生活的潜能,于是他们鼓励我与失明抗争到底。
我必须学会相信自己,这对我来说是最难的课程,不过也是最基础的。如果做不到,我就会彻底崩溃,最终只能坐在前门的摇椅上度过自己的余生。我所说的相信自己,并不只局限于帮我独自走下陌生楼梯的那种简单的自信,而是指更为广泛的方面,即相信自己虽然不完美,却是一个真实的积极向上的人,相信在茫茫人海中,必定有一个适合自己的特殊位置。
我用了很多年的时间去发现并巩固这种信念,这得从最基础的事情开始。一天,有人给了我一个室内棒球,我以为他是在挖苦我,因此感觉受到了伤害。我说:“我玩不了。”他催促着我:“拿着,让它在地上滚。”这句话在我的脑海中留下了深刻的印象。“让它在地上滚!”通过滚球,我可以听到它滚动的位置。一个念头出现在我的脑海,那就是打棒球,这是我曾经认为不可能实现的目标。于是,我在费城奥弗布洛克盲人学校,发明了一种很受欢迎的棒球游戏。我们称之为地面球。
我为自己的一生树立了很多目标,并准备逐一实现。没错,我必须了解自己的极限。如果一开始就知道目标超出了自己的能力,而不去实现,那不是件好事,最终只会酿成失败的苦果。有时我也会失败,但不管怎么说,我总会有所进步。
我相信,正是因为我的生命模式基于一定的价值观,我才能更容易地进步。我发现,如果我努力做个诚实的人,生活也就会更容易。我从友谊以及与他人的相互依赖中获得了力量。如果没有那些视力正常的朋友,我就是一个真正的盲人。可以谦恭地说,我生活的目标和慰籍是从一个凡人信仰上帝的志向中找到的。也许,物质生活对于失明者而言,并不像对其他人那样重要。我只知道,有一个信念一直鼓舞着我,那就是努力成为高尚的人,而且也只有它能帮助我健全地生活。
实践箴言,生活改变
How to Refill An Empty Life
艾伯特·内斯比特/Albert Nesbitt
One day about fifteen years ago I suddenly came face to face with myself and realized there was something quite empty about my life. My friends and associates perhaps didn' t see it. By the generally accepted standards, I was "successful". I was head of a prosperous1 manufacturing concern and I led what is usually referred to as an "active" life, both socially and in business. But it didn' t seem to me to be adding up to anything. I was going around in circles. I worked hard, played hard, and pretty soon I discovered I was hitting the highballs harder than I needed. I wasn' t a candidate for Alcoholics Anonymous, but to be honest with myself I had to admit I was drinking more than was good for me. It may have been out of sheer boredom2.
I began to wonder what to do. It occurred to me that I might have gotten myself too tightly wrapped up in my job, to the sacrifice of the basic but nonmaterialistic values of life. It struck me abruptly that I was being quite selfish, that my major interest in people was in what they meant to me, what they represented as business contacts or employees, not what I might mean to them. I remembered that as my mother sent me to Sunday school as a boy, and encouraged me to sing in the church choi, she used to tell me that the value of what she called a good Christian background was in having something to tie to. I put in a little thought recalling the Golden Rule and some of the other first principles of Christianity. I began to get interested in YMCA work.
It happened that just at this time we were having some bitter fights with the union at our plant. Then one day it occurred to me: What really is their point of view, and why? I began to see a basis for their suspicions3, their often chip-on-shoulder point of view, and I determined to do something about it.
We endeavored to apply―literally apply―Christian principles to our dealings with employees, to practice, for example, something of the Golden Rule. The men' s response, once they were convinced we were sincere, was remarkable. The effort has paid for its pains, and I don' t mean in dollars. I mean in dividends of human dignity, of a man' s pride in his job and in the company, knowing that he is no longer just a cog but a live personal part of it and that it doesn' t matter whether he belongs to a certain church or whether the pigmentation4 of his skin is light or dark.
But I can speak with most authority on how this change of attitude affected me and my personal outlook on life. Perhaps, again, many of my friends did not notice the difference.