"Oh," exclaimed Morrel, with a glance full of bitter reproach, "do you think it possible that I could be?""Listen," said the count."Do you understand the meaning of my words? You cannot take me for a commonplace man, a mere rattle, emitting a vague and senseless noise.When I ask you if you are consoled, I speak to you as a man for whom the human heart has no secrets.Well, Morrel, let us both examine the depths of your heart.Do you still feel the same feverish impatience of grief which made you start like a wounded lion? Have you still that devouring thirst which can only be appeased in the grave? Are you still actuated by the regret which drags the living to the pursuit of death; or are you only suffering from the prostration of fatigue and the weariness of hope deferred? Has the loss of memory rendered it impossible for you to weep? Oh, my dear friend, if this be the case, -- if you can no longer weep, if your frozen heart be dead, if you put all your trust in God, then, Maximilian, you are consoled -- do not complain.""Count," said Morrel, in a firm and at the same time soft voice, "listen to me, as to a man whose thoughts are raised to heaven, though he remains on earth; I come to die in the arms of a friend.Certainly, there are people whom I love.Ilove my sister Julie, -- I love her husband Emmanuel; but Irequire a strong mind to smile on my last moments.My sister would be bathed in tears and fainting; I could not bear to see her suffer.Emmanuel would tear the weapon from my hand, and alarm the house with his cries.You, count, who are more than mortal, will, I am sure, lead me to death by a pleasant path, will you not?""My friend," said the count, "I have still one doubt, -- are you weak enough to pride yourself upon your sufferings?""No, indeed, -- I am calm," said Morrel, giving his hand to the count; "my pulse does not beat slower or faster than usual.No, I feel that I have reached the goal, and I will go no farther.You told me to wait and hope; do you know what you did, unfortunate adviser? I waited a month, or rather I suffered for a month! I did hope (man is a poor wretched creature), I did hope.What I cannot tell, --something wonderful, an absurdity, a miracle, -- of what nature he alone can tell who has mingled with our reason that folly we call hope.Yes, I did wait -- yes, I did hope, count, and during this quarter of an hour we have been talking together, you have unconsciously wounded, tortured my heart, for every word you have uttered proved that there was no hope for me.Oh, count, I shall sleep calmly, deliciously in the arms of death." Morrel uttered these words with an energy which made the count shudder."My friend," continued Morrel, "you named the fifth of October as the end of the period of waiting, -- to-day is the fifth of October," he took out his watch, "it is now nine o'clock, -- I have yet three hours to live.""Be it so," said the count, "come." Morrel mechanically followed the count, and they had entered the grotto before he perceived it.He felt a carpet under his feet, a door opened, perfumes surrounded him, and a brilliant light dazzled his eyes.Morrel hesitated to advance; he dreaded the enervating effect of all that he saw.Monte Cristo drew him in gently."Why should we not spend the last three hours remaining to us of life, like those ancient Romans, who when condemned by Nero, their emperor and heir, sat down at a table covered with flowers, and gently glided into death, amid the perfume of heliotropes and roses?" Morrel smiled.
"As you please," he said; "death is always death, -- that is forgetfulness, repose, exclusion from life, and therefore from grief." He sat down, and Monte Cristo placed himself opposite to him.They were in the marvellous dining-room before described, where the statues had baskets on their heads always filled with fruits and flowers.Morrel had looked carelessly around, and had probably noticed nothing.
"Let us talk like men," he said, looking at the count.
"Go on!"
"Count," said Morrel, "you are the epitome of all human knowledge, and you seem like a being descended from a wiser and more advanced world than ours.""There is something true in what you say," said the count, with that smile which made him so handsome; "I have descended from a planet called grief.""I believe all you tell me without questioning its meaning;for instance, you told me to live, and I did live; you told me to hope, and I almost did so.I am almost inclined to ask you, as though you had experienced death, `is it painful to die?'"Monte Cristo looked upon Morrel with indescribable tenderness."Yes," he said, "yes, doubtless it is painful, if you violently break the outer covering which obstinately begs for life.If you plunge a dagger into your flesh, if you insinuate a bullet into your brain, which the least shock disorders, -- then certainly, you will suffer pain, and you will repent quitting a life for a repose you have bought at so dear a price.""Yes; I know that there is a secret of luxury and pain in death, as well as in life; the only thing is to understand it.""You have spoken truly, Maximilian; according to the care we bestow upon it, death is either a friend who rocks us gently as a nurse, or an enemy who violently drags the soul from the body.Some day, when the world is much older, and when mankind will be masters of all the destructive powers in nature, to serve for the general good of humanity; when mankind, as you were just saying, have discovered the secrets of death, then that death will become as sweet and voluptuous as a slumber in the arms of your beloved.""And if you wished to die, you would choose this death, count?""Yes."
