She made no allusion whatever to George Gravener--I thought her silence the only good taste and her gaiety perhaps a part of the very anxiety of that discretion, the effect of a determination that people shouldn't know from herself that her relations with the man she was to marry were strained.All the weight, however, that she left me to throw was a sufficient implication of the weight HE had thrown in vain.Oh she knew the question of character was immense, and that one couldn't entertain any plan for ****** merit comfortable without running the gauntlet of that terrible procession of interrogation-points which, like a young ladies'
school out for a walk, hooked their uniform noses at the tail of governess Conduct.But were we absolutely to hold that there was never, never, never an exception, never, never, never an occasion for liberal acceptance, for clever charity, for suspended pedantry--for letting one side, in short, outbalance another? When Miss Anvoy threw off this appeal I could have embraced her for so delightfully emphasising her unlikeness to Mrs.Saltram."Why not have the courage of one's forgiveness," she asked, "as well as the enthusiasm of one's adhesion?""Seeing how wonderfully you've threshed the whole thing out," Ievasively replied, "gives me an extraordinary notion of the point your enthusiasm has reached."She considered this remark an instant with her eyes on mine, and Idivined that it struck her I might possibly intend it as a reference to some personal subjection to our fat philosopher, to some aberration of sensibility, some perversion of taste.At least I couldn't interpret otherwise the sudden flash that came into her face.Such a manifestation, as the result of any word of mine, embarrassed me; but while I was thinking how to reassure her the flush passed away in a smile of exquisite good nature."Oh you see one forgets so wonderfully how one dislikes him!" she said; and if her tone simply extinguished his strange figure with the brush of its compassion, it also rings in my ear to-day as the purest of all our praises.But with what quick response of fine pity such a relegation of the man himself made me privately sigh "Ah poor Saltram!" She instantly, with this, took the measure of all Ididn't believe, and it enabled her to go on: "What can one do when a person has given such a lift to one's interest in life?""Yes, what can one do?" If I struck her as a little vague it was because I was thinking of another person.I indulged in another inarticulate murmur--"Poor George Gravener!" What had become of the lift HE had given that interest? Later on I made up my mind that she was sore and stricken at the appearance he presented of wanting the miserable money.This was the hidden reason of her alienation.The probable sincerity, in spite of the illiberality, of his scruples about the particular use of it under discussion didn't efface the ugliness of his demand that they should buy a good house with it.Then, as for his alienation, he didn't, pardonably enough, grasp the lift Frank Saltram had given her interest in life.If a mere spectator could ask that last question, with what rage in his heart the man himself might! He wasn't, like her, I was to see, too proud to show me why he was disappointed.
