Saint Cecilia'sRowland went often to the Coliseum; he never wearied of it.
One morning, about a month after his return from Frascati, as he was strolling across the vast arena, he observed a young woman seated on one of the fragments of stone which are ranged along the line of the ancient parapet.It seemed to him that he had seen her before, but he was unable to localize her face.
Passing her again, he perceived that one of the little red-legged French soldiers at that time on guard there had approached her and was gallantly ****** himself agreeable.
She smiled brilliantly, and Rowland recognized the smile (it had always pleased him) of a certain comely Assunta, who sometimes opened the door for Mrs.Light's visitors.
He wondered what she was doing alone in the Coliseum, and conjectured that Assunta had admirers as well as her young mistress, but that, being without the same domiciliary conveniencies, she was using this massive heritage of her Latin ancestors as a boudoir.
In other words, she had an appointment with her lover, who had better, from present appearances, be punctual.
It was a long time since Rowland had ascended to the ruinous upper tiers of the great circus, and, as the day was radiant and the distant views promised to be particularly clear, he determined to give himself the pleasure.The custodian unlocked the great wooden wicket, and he climbed through the winding shafts, where the eager Roman crowds had billowed and trampled, not pausing till he reached the highest accessible point of the ruin.The views were as fine as he had supposed;the lights on the Sabine Mountains had never been more lovely.
He gazed to his satisfaction and retraced his steps.
In a moment he paused again on an abutment somewhat lower, from which the glance dropped dizzily into the interior.
There are chance anfractuosities of ruin in the upper portions of the Coliseum which offer a very fair imitation of the rugged face of an Alpine cliff.In those days a multitude of delicate flowers and sprays of wild herbage had found a friendly soil in the hoary crevices, and they bloomed and nodded amid the antique masonry as freely as they would have done in the virgin rock.
Rowland was turning away, when he heard a sound of voices rising up from below.He had but to step slightly forward to find himself overlooking two persons who had seated themselves on a narrow ledge, in a sunny corner.
They had apparently had an eye to extreme privacy, but they had not observed that their position was commanded by Rowland's stand-point.One of these airy adventurers was a lady, thickly veiled, so that, even if he had not been standing directly above her, Rowland could not have seen her face.
The other was a young man, whose face was also invisible, but who, as Rowland stood there, gave a toss of his clustering locks which was equivalent to the signature--Roderick Hudson.
A moment's reflection, hereupon, satisfied him of the identity of the lady.He had been unjust to poor Assunta, sitting patient in the gloomy arena; she had not come on her own errand.
Rowland's discoveries made him hesitate.Should he retire as noiselessly as possible, or should he call out a friendly good morning? While he was debating the question, he found himself distinctly hearing his friends' words.They were of such a nature as to make him unwilling to retreat, and yet to make it awkward to be discovered in a position where it would be apparent that he had heard them.
"If what you say is true," said Christina, with her usual soft deliberateness--it made her words rise with peculiar distinctness to Rowland's ear--"you are simply weak.I am sorry!
I hoped--I really believed--you were not.""No, I am not weak," answered Roderick, with vehemence; "I maintain that I am not weak! I am incomplete, perhaps; but I can't help that.
Weakness is a man's own fault!"
"Incomplete, then!" said Christina, with a laugh."It 's the same thing, so long as it keeps you from splendid achievement.
Is it written, then, that I shall really never know what Ihave so often dreamed of?"
"What have you dreamed of?"
"A man whom I can perfectly respect!" cried the young girl, with a sudden flame."A man, at least, whom I can unrestrictedly admire.
I meet one, as I have met more than one before, whom I fondly believe to be cast in a larger mould than most of the vile human breed, to be large in character, great in talent, strong in will!
In such a man as that, I say, one's weary imagination at last may rest; or it may wander if it will, yet never need to wander far from the deeps where one's heart is anchored.
When I first knew you, I gave no sign, but you had struck me.
I observed you, as women observe, and I fancied you had the sacred fire.""Before heaven, I believe I have!" cried Roderick.
"Ah, but so little! It flickers and trembles and sputters;it goes out, you tell me, for whole weeks together.
From your own account, it 's ten to one that in the long run you 're a failure.""I say those things sometimes myself, but when I hear you say them they make me feel as if I could work twenty years at a sitting, on purpose to refute you!""Ah, the man who is strong with what I call strength,"Christina replied, "would neither rise nor fall by anything I could say!
I am a poor, weak woman; I have no strength myself, and I can give no strength.I am a miserable medley of vanity and folly.
I am silly, I am ignorant, I am affected, I am false.
I am the fruit of a horrible education, sown on a worthless soil.
I am all that, and yet I believe I have one merit! I should know a great character when I saw it, and I should delight in it with a generosity which would do something toward the remission of my sins.
For a man who should really give me a certain feeling--which I have never had, but which I should know when it came--I would send Prince Casamassima and his millions to perdition.
I don't know what you think of me for saying all this; I suppose we have not climbed up here under the skies to play propriety.
