LacerationsChapter 1
Father FerapontALYOSHA was roused early, before daybreak.Father Zossima woke up feeling very weak, though he wanted to get out of bed and sit up in a chair.His mind was quite clear; his face looked very tired, yet bright and almost joyful.It wore an expression of gaiety, kindness and cordiality."Maybe I shall not live through the coming day," he said to Alyosha.Then he desired to confess and take the sacrament at once.He always confessed to Father Paissy.After taking the communion, the service of extreme unction followed.The monks assembled and the cell was gradually filled up by the inmates of the hermitage.Meantime it was daylight.People began coming from the monastery.After the service was over the elder desired to kiss and take leave of everyone.As the cell was so small the earlier visitors withdrew to make room for others.Alyosha stood beside the elder, who was seated again in his arm-chair.He talked as much as he could.Though his voice was weak, it was fairly steady.
"I've been teaching you so many years, and therefore I've been talking aloud so many years, that I've got into the habit of talking, and so much so that it's almost more difficult for me to hold my tongue than to talk, even now, in spite of my weakness, dear Fathers and brothers," he jested, looking with emotion at the group round him.
Alyosha remembered afterwards something of what he said to them.
But though he spoke out distinctly and his voice was fairly steady, his speech was somewhat disconnected.He spoke of many things, he seemed anxious before the moment of death to say everything he had not said in his life, and not simply for the sake of instructing them, but as though thirsting to share with all men and all creation his joy and ecstasy, and once more in his life to open his whole heart.
"Love one another, Fathers," said Father Zossima, as far as Alyosha could remember afterwards."Love God's people.Because we have come here and shut ourselves within these walls, we are no holier than those that are outside, but on the contrary, from the very fact of coming here, each of us has confessed to himself that he is worse than others, than all men on earth....And the longer the monk lives in his seclusion, the more keenly he must recognise that.Else he would have had no reason to come here.When he realises that he is not only worse than others, but that he is responsible to all men for all and everything, for all human sins, national and individual, only then the aim of our seclusion is attained.For know, dear ones, that every one of us is undoubtedly responsible for all men- and everything on earth, not merely through the general sinfulness of creation, but each one personally for all mankind and every individual man.This knowledge is the crown of life for the monk and for every man.For monks are not a special sort of men, but only what all men ought to be.Only through that knowledge, our heart grows soft with infinite, universal, inexhaustible love.Then every one of you will have the power to win over the whole world by love and to wash away the sins of the world with your tears....Each of you keep watch over your heart and confess your sins to yourself unceasingly.Be not afraid of your sins, even when perceiving them, if only there be penitence, but make no conditions with God.Again, I say, be not proud.Be proud neither to the little nor to the great.Hate not those who reject you, who insult you, who abuse and slander you.Hate not the atheists, the teachers of evil, the materialists- and I mean not only the good ones- for there are many good ones among them, especially in our day- hate not even the wicked ones.Remember them in your prayers thus: Save, O Lord, all those who have none to pray for them, save too all those who will not pray.And add: it is not in pride that I make this prayer, O Lord, for I am lower than all men....
Love God's people, let not strangers draw away the flock, for if you slumber in your slothfulness and disdainful pride, or worse still, in covetousness, they will come from all sides and draw away your flock.Expound the Gospel to the people unceasingly...be not extortionate....Do not love gold and silver, do not hoard them....
Have faith.Cling to the banner and raise it on high."But the elder spoke more disconnectedly than Alyosha reported his words afterwards.Sometimes he broke off altogether, as though to take breath and recover his strength, but he was in a sort of ecstasy.They heard him with emotion, though many wondered at his words and found them obscure....Afterwards all remembered those words.
When Alyosha happened for a moment to leave the cell, he was struck by the general excitement and suspense in the monks who were crowding about it.This anticipation showed itself in some by anxiety, in others by devout solemnity.All were expecting that some marvel would happen immediately after the elder's death.Their suspense was, from one point of view, almost frivolous, but even the most austere of the monks were affected by it.Father Paissy's face looked the gravest of all.
Alyosha was mysteriously summoned by a monk to see Rakitin, who had arrived from town with a singular letter for him from Madame Hohlakov.In it she informed Alyosha of a strange and very opportune incident.It appeared that among the women who had come on the previous day to receive Father Zossima's blessing, there had been an old woman from the town, a sergeant's widow, called Prohorovna.She had inquired whether she might pray for the rest of the soul of her son, Vassenka, who had gone to Irkutsk, and had sent her no news for over a year.To which Father Zossima had answered sternly, forbidding her to do so, and saying that to pray for the living as though they were dead was a kind of sorcery.He afterwards forgave her on account of her ignorance, and added, "as though reading the book of the future" (this was Madame Hohlakov's expression), words of comfort:
