selfishness but a parasite on the tree of life!In my own world I had the habit of solitary song;here not a crooning murmur ever parted my lips!There I sang without thinking;here I thought without singing!there I had never had a bosom-friend;here the affection of an idiot would be divinely welcome!"If only I had a dog to love!"I sighed--and regarded with wonder my past self,which preferred the company of book or pen to that of man or woman;which,if the author of a tale I was enjoying appeared,would wish him away that I might return to his story.I had chosen the dead rather than the living,the thing thought rather than the thing thinking!"Any man,"I said now,"is more than the greatest of books!"I had not cared for my live brothers and sisters,and now I was left without even the dead to comfort me!
The wood thinned yet more,and the pines grew yet larger,sending up huge stems,like columns eager to support the heavens.More trees of other kinds appeared;the forest was growing richer!The roses wore now trees,and their flowers of astonishing splendour.
Suddenly I spied what seemed a great house or castle;but its forms were so strangely indistinct,that I could not be certain it was more than a chance combination of tree-shapes.As I drew nearer,its lines yet held together,but neither they nor the body of it grew at all more definite;and when at length I stood in front of it,I remained as doubtful of its nature as before.House or castle habitable,it certainly was not;it might be a ruin overgrown with ivy and roses!Yet of building hid in the foliage,not the poorest wall-remnant could I discern.Again and again I seemed to descry what must be building,but it always vanished before closer inspection.
Could it be,I pondered,that the ivy had embraced a huge edifice and consumed it,and its interlaced branches retained the shapes of the walls it had assimilated?--I could be sure of nothing concerning the appearance.
Before me was a rectangular vacancy--the ghost of a doorway without a door:I stepped through it,and found myself in an open space like a great hall,its floor covered with grass and flowers,its walls and roof of ivy and vine,mingled with roses.
There could be no better place in which to pass the night!Igathered a quantity of withered leaves,laid them in a corner,and threw myself upon them.A red sunset filled the hall,the night was warm,and my couch restful;I lay gazing up at the live ceiling,with its tracery of branches and twigs,its clouds of foliage,and peeping patches of loftier roof.My eyes went wading about as if tangled in it,until the sun was down,and the sky beginning to grow dark.Then the red roses turned black,and soon the yellow and white alone were visible.When they vanished,the stars came instead,hanging in the leaves like live topazes,throbbing and sparkling and flashing many colours:I was canopied with a tree from Aladdin's cave!
Then I discovered that it was full of nests,whence tiny heads,nearly indistinguishable,kept popping out with a chirp or two,and disappearing again.For a while there were rustlings and stirrings and little prayers;but as the darkness grew,the small heads became still,and at last every feathered mother had her brood quiet under her wings,the talk in the little beds was over,and God's bird-nursery at rest beneath the waves of sleep.Once more a few flutterings made me look up:an owl went sailing across.I had only a glimpse of him,but several times felt the cool wafture of his silent wings.The mother birds did not move again;they saw that he was looking for mice,not children.
About midnight I came wide awake,roused by a revelry,whose noises were yet not loud.Neither were they distant;they were close to me,but attenuate.My eyes were so dazzled,however,that for a while I could see nothing;at last they came to themselves.
I was lying on my withered leaves in the corner of a splendid hall.
Before me was a crowd of gorgeously dressed men and gracefully robed women,none of whom seemed to see me.In dance after dance they vaguely embodied the story of life,its meetings,its passions,its partings.A student of Shakspere,I had learned something of every dance alluded to in his plays,and hence partially understood several of those I now saw--the minuet,the pavin,the hey,the coranto,the lavolta.The dancers were attired in fashion as ancient as their dances.
A moon had risen while I slept,and was shining through the countless-windowed roof;but her light was crossed by so many shadows that at first I could distinguish almost nothing of the faces of the multitude;I could not fail,however,to perceive that there was something odd about them:I sat up to see them better.--Heavens!could I call them faces?They were skull fronts!
