They were as usual in the garden, and it hadn't yet been so present to him that if he were only a happy cad there would be a good way to protect her.As she wouldn't hear of his being yet beyond precautions she had gone into the house for a particular shawl that was just the thing for his knees, and, blinking in the watery sunshine, had come back with it across the fine little lawn.He was neither fatuous nor asinine, but he had almost to put it to himself as a small task to resist the sense of his absurd advantage with her.It filled him with horror and awkwardness, made him think of he didn't know what, recalled something of Maupassant's--the smitten "Miss Harriet" and her tragic fate.There was a preposterous possibility--yes, he held the strings quite in his hands--of keeping the treasure for himself.That was the art of life--what the real artist would consistently do.He would close the door on his impression, treat it as a private museum.He would see that he could lounge and linger there, live with wonderful things there, lie up there to rest and refit.For himself he was sure that after a little he should be able to paint there--do things in a key he had never thought of before.When she brought him the rug he took it from her and made her sit down on the bench and resume her knitting; then, passing behind her with a laugh, he placed it over her own shoulders; after which he moved to and fro before her, his hands in his pockets and his cigarette in his teeth.He was ashamed of the cigarette--a villainous false note;but she allowed, liked, begged him to smoke, and what he said to her on it, in one of the pleasantries she benevolently missed, was that he did so for fear of doing worse.That only showed how the end was really in sight."I dare say it will strike you as quite awful, what I'm going to say to you, but I can't help it.I speak out of the depths of my respect for you.It will seem to you horrid disloyalty to poor Addie.Yes--there we are; there _I_ am at least in my naked monstrosity." He stopped and looked at her till she might have been almost frightened."Don't let her come.
Tell her not to.I've tried to prevent it, but she suspects."The poor woman wondered."Suspects?"
"Well, I drew it, in writing to her, on reflexion, as mild as Icould--having been visited in the watches of the night by the instinct of what might happen.Something told me to keep back my first letter--in which, under the first impression, I myself rashly 'raved'; and I concocted instead of it an insincere and guarded report.But guarded as I was I clearly didn't keep you 'down,' as we say, enough.The wonder of your colour--daub you over with grey as I might--must have come through and told the tale.She scents battle from afar--by which I mean she scents 'quaintness.' But keep her off.It's hideous, what I'm saying--but I owe it to you.
I owe it to the world.She'll kill you.""You mean I shan't get on with her?"
"Oh fatally! See how _I_ have.And see how you have with ME.
She's intelligent, moreover, remarkably pretty, remarkably good.
And she'll adore you."
"Well then?"
"Why that will be just how she'll do for you.""Oh I can hold my own!" said Miss Wenham with the headshake of a horse ****** his sleigh-bells rattle in frosty air.
